V.A. Welcome To Our Scene (1990)
THIS CHOICE IS MINE
I'd ever mentioned / Certain days don't go so deep / Nothing but friendship / ...Getting me through another week / / You sit there, you tell me / So far nothing I have reached / When you sit there and tell me / At least I'm doing what I want and... / / This choice is mine / This choice is mine / / Heard you ever mention / "Doesn't matter what you want / All the things you ever wanted / ...Don't fit in the real world, no" / / You sit there, you tell me / Nothing I have reached / When you sit there and tell me / At least I'm doing what I want and... / / This choice is mine / This choice is mine / / And when I'm out there / Something tries to hold me down / I know you try to hold me down / Better look at yourself, cos... / / This choice is mine / This choice is mine
Punk Rock Nation (1994)
FRIENDS ARE BEST
It's me and friends. And friends are best. We had this falling out. Thought we could do without and once we used to be this thick. I put my pride aside and then I got you on the line. And now I'm really glad I did. It's me and friends. And friends are the best. Cos out there on the street. Just looking at my feet. You feel an outcast when alone. But now when things go wrong it doesn't hurt that strong no more. Cos I can call you on the phone. When I had no friends no more, there just wasn't any fun no more. Felt that I shut all the doors to all that I'd been living for. And there couldn't be much more that I felt was worth living for. No more alone. When it's high time. When it's the right time. If there's anything that I can do for you. You know that I thank you for being there just at the right time. Wasn't it high time. It's me and friends and then it's fine.
PUNK NEVER DIE
Summers don't go slow and so just before you know. So be it that you're walking in the rain on your own. The world's insane. You've got so much inside, but that just won't see the light. Won't see it. Still you're walking on while your mind makes up a song. Feel you work too much and you're always in a rush. In need for something else. Maybe something for yourself. You need fresh air to breathe. It's a thought you can not leave. Not before too soon your head is working up a tune. And put it to a tape deck. Sing out all these lines. Shout it if you feel bad and make it in a rhyme. Punk never die for I. Never die. No never die. One say: Hey hey hey. Aah aah aah. When I'm home and close the door. I want to hear that song once more. That song that is about my life. And it makes me feel alright. I want to hear some energy. Could you give it loud to me. There is young kids, there on stage, and they sure know how to play.
READY TO LEARN
Don't you know I feel like crying. Sometimes it dies here deep inside. What people do just to eachother. Do we all really have to fight. We make it better anyway if we listen to what others have to say. Ready to learn. Make it to school somehow. Absorbing what is around now. Some people change, others they never. But no one is the same inside. If someone is totally different. Does it mean we have to fight. We make it better, without doubt, if we knew what others are about. Ready to learn. Going the world around. Digging what's in your town.
WHAT IS IT
Well here again I strike the lucky. So you're the one that's gonna make me happy. But everytime we go downtown I see the way you look around. It makes me wonder what I really found. It's you don't think the way I do, but I need someone too. I hate it when you say you're undecided and your heart's divided. If you give me nothing. What am I supposed to do. I'm more cynical than before. I'm not a little kid no more. My feet on the ground. I am not wrapped around your fingers. Hey hey hey. So what is it you're gonna do. There are times you come on easy. And there are times it's just impossible to reach you. And now it's just a matter of time and you'll vanish from my mind. I'd feel much better with this all behind.
EXPANDING EXPANDING
Dear old mother, I'm gonna make you very proud. But dear old father, he don't believe that anyhow. I'm growing older. Still at the same old job, cos I need the money. Ooh I wish I had enough. Time and time again. I don't know when. I don't know how, but somehow... Turn on the tellie. Come home very late at night. So goddamn tired, but full with plans tonight. But I go on dreaming and sleep the whole night through. One day I'll change, cos I know I have to. Making it work this time and if I got some time aside, I use it with all might. I use it to grow further. Making it anyway. Gonna making it anyhow. Gonna make it this time around. Expanding. Ooh Lord I'll be expanding.
TRULY INTENSIVE
Truly intensive, madly immensive. I found a perfect fit. Just suits my life and that is it. We play these tunes we like. That's us, that is our lives. Do we care... No. About promotion. Do we care... No. We cross the ocean with music. Fill the globe with music.
LEAVING
I was never out to hurt you. I'd never go out of my way to hurt anybody really. But for a long time I felt the time for leaving. So it's bye now, I'll be seein' you. But I know that I will never ever see you. That's just how it goes. Well I can not help my feelings. With scary thoughts I'm dealing. Ooh it's hard with this cold cold world we're dealing with. It came into my mind. It's just the way I'm feeling. Ooh ooh aah aah. Ooh ooh hey hey hey.
STILL IN A PUNKBAND
Yeah yeah yeah. Aah aah aah. Ooh yeah, stop and stare at people with funny hair. But times like that are just no longer there. Sunny days seemed so much brighter. Winter days seemed so much lighter, yeah. And that's too bad. Say, it isn't all that way. Some things will never change. Somehow I'm still the same. Go with the flow, with all the things you know. You turn your back when fortune is your goal. Then funny days seemed so much brighter. Off off days seemed so much lighter then. That be the path you chose. Say, don't have to be that way. Who says you have to change. Somehow we're still the same. Still in a punkband. Yeah yeah yeah. Aah aah aah. Ooh yes. Mum and dad don't understand it. Mum and dad, they just don't understand it.
EVIL RUINS THE WORLD
Evil ruins the world. I hold on to my possessions too tightly sometimes. And I step on too many people. I should keep that in mind. We find it. We fight this evil in me, in you. Can let not, should let not. I say things and I do things that are simply not right. I should consider other ones feelings and don't deny them their rights.
BURNING DESIRE
I don't know what to say. Just beggin' again to play. I didn't know what to do. You say you felt this too. It follows me everywhere I go, so here we go again I know. It's a burning desire. And I nearly nearly lose my mind. It's a burning desire and I never ever felt this fine before. Plug in all these toys and bring on all that noise. We may never get it right, but isn't it fun just to try. We thought that we could do without. I guess we can not leave this out of our lives. We're making it right now. We make it alright now. With friends that staying with me now. Been out of touch, but still somehow I knew we were not really through. And after all this time; still the same in mind. Old feelings staying with me now, but I think that's fine. A burning... It's a burning desire with the temperature is rising higher. And if it goes higher... Ooh ooh wasn't it such a long time.
SOME OF US
Those bands are changing. There's rearranging of sound, so they can have your money. Once say one thing, but do another thing now. Do you really think that's funny. Make it clear. Make it clear. Some of us are not like that at all. We're child at heart. Some even have a child themselves. Why act like life is over. Right from the start we knew, we knew we'd never sell. But we are far from over. It's fine, the freedom, but it doesn't change my mind. The freedom.
DAMN YOU
Christ and Allah rules. Well that ain't no excuse to kill about all that meets the eye. Well, your book don't make it right. Cold bloody murders can never be justified. Damn you. Bad thing that you do. Even right now, right here where bodies pile up on streets, we fear those stupid people who still believe in God and think they have the right to take another's life. Don't they know. Don't they understand it. It's getting out of hand. It's way way out of hand. They praise the mighty Lord on your television and all I see is the hate coming from religion.
STOP FOR A MOMENT
I had some plans. They stood no chance. Somebody had changed them and re-arranged them. Do you know what's falling out, feelings. Do you know what I was about. I let things slide. It all goes by. Now what I always wanted. That's what I can't have. Do you know what I'm losing now, feelings. Do you know what I was about. Now stop for a moment. I'm not in a coma. I do not feel that I am real. This is not happening. This can't be happening. Though much has past, there's still time left. Just like me to waste it. Not celebrating it.
ALL AROUND ME
Get me out of the sun and spray me water, I'll be burning hot. Ooh I'll be fine. Yes, I will be alright. What's around me. What I see. What's around me surrounds me. What's around me; city blocks 2000 feet all around me, around me. Make me whole. Get my butt out of this hole. To the mountains far from home. Where the lakes flow, there I want to go. Get me out having fun all day. Be happier with what I've got. Ooh I'll be fine. Yes, I will be alright. 10.000 people in my street around me. Make me whole with the next train out this hole to the beaches far from home. Coming with me or I will go alone.
FIRE AND ICE
Yes I used to walk this way. And then it was my special way. Just to stand out from the crowd, but now I may have chickened out. I'm dressed like anyone around. I'm just this other jerk in town. And sometimes share a narrow mind, which is so favorable these times. I let go. It's impossible to hold these thoughts I used to believe in. Don't dare to say something ain't right. It's fire and ice. Slowly lose the agressive touch and the years don't help real much. I feel like letting things just slide. It make it easy getting by.
PUNK ROCK NATION
We came from Garageland and we've been really good friends. We play our one-chord wonders just to make our stand. Now from Hong Kong Garden right to L.A. Town, we will send you our tapes. Cos you may like our sound. There's nothing quite like it. To get rid of frustration. So if you are a stranger in a strange town, put your headphones on and have a celebration. This is punk rock nation all over the nation. Our past has been immense. Time's been really wild then. We can not bring them back, but hey, that's not our plan. This music is our live and played the way we like. And when we do a gig, it's always like the first time. And the feeling, we like it. To be X-generating. We knew it was a real thing, when driving home, had the radio on and they played Penetration. You'd think that getting older would turn you straight and life'd be boring. But you and I get older with a feeling for more more more more, ooh yeah.
Funeral Oration (1995)
STILL IN A PUNK BAND
Yeah yeah yeah. Aah aah aah. Ooh yeah. / Stop and stare at people with funny hair / But times like that are just no longer there / Sunny days seemed so much brighter / Winter days seemed so much lighter, yeah / And that's too bad / Say, it isn't all that way / Some things will never change / Somehow I'm still the same / Go with the flow / With all the things you know / You turn your back when fortune is your goal / Then funny days seemed so much brighter / Off off days seemed so much lighter then / That be the path you chose / Say, don't have to be that way / Who says you have to change / Somehow we're still the same / Still in a punk band / Yeah yeah yeah aah aah aah Ooh yes / Mum and dad don't understand it / They just don't understand it
NEVER DIE
Summers don't go slow / And so just before you know / So be it that you're walking / In the rain on your own / The world's insane / You've got so much inside / But that just won't see the light / Won't see it / Still you're walking on / While your mind makes up a song / Feel you work too much / And you're always in a rush / In need for something else / Maybe something for yourself / You need fresh air to breathe / It's a thought you can not leave / Not before too soon / Your head is working up a tune / And put it to a tape deck / Sing out all these lines / Shout it if you feel bad / And make it in a rhyme / Punk never die for I / Never die. No never die / When I'm home and close the door / I want to hear that song once more / That song that is about my life / And it makes me feel alright / I want to hear some energy / Could you give it loud to me / There is young kids there on stage / And they sure know how to play
WARRIOR
Warrior, like a warrior / You were a warrior, like a warrior / Am I still in your head / Still in your mind / And I think it's too bad / Yes it is too sad / About early times / We could make money, but walked away / We had better things to do these days / Warrior, like a warrior / You were warrior, like a warrior / Nothing that they said was right / We were fighting for our rights / Nothing that we did was wrong / We chose our thing and called it punk / Somewhere back in your head / Somewhere in your mind / Is there maybe some left with the past so dead / Everything went / Without a fraction left of it / I understand that's just the way it is / / And it's true / Who am I to judge this way / About the kids alive today / Pretend we're better is a big mistake to do / Knowing what we had behind / Don't it seem like better times / When you remember what you were like / Like a warrior in time, like a warrior in time...
WHAT IS IT
Well here again I strike the lucky / So you're the one that's gonna make me happy / But everytime we go downtown / I see the way you look around / It makes me wonder what I really found / It's you don't think the way I do / But, I need someone too / I hate it when you say you're undecided / And your heart's divided / If you give me nothing / What am I supposed to do / I'm more cynical than before / I'm not a little kid no more / My feet on the ground / I am not wrapped around your fingers / Hey hey hey / So what is it you're gonna do / There are times you come on easy / And there are times it's just impossible / To reach you / And now it's just a matter of time / And you'll vanish from my mind / I'd feel much better with all behind
EXPANDING
Dear old mother / I'm gonna make you very proud / But dear old father / He don't believe that anyhow / I'm growing older / Still at the same old job / 'Cause I need the money / Ooh I wish I had enough / Time and time again / I don't know when / I don't know how, but somehow / Turn on the tellie / Come home very late at night / So goddamn tired / But full with plans tonight / But I go on dreaming / And sleep the whole night through / One day I'll change / 'Cause I know I have to / Making it work this time / And if I got some time aside / I use it with all might / I use it to grow further / Making it anyway / Gonna make it anyhow / Gonna make it this time around / Expanding / Ooh Lord I'll be expanding
ONE MORE TIME
I feel strange / Afraid of getting old / Turning fat, turning bald / My heart turns to stone / The days don't hardly feel the same / When I work too much these days / The pleasure comes with pain / And if I had more chances / I would never have to run away / I take the things that come my way / Give me one more time, then I do it right / Give me one more shot, I swear I won't fuck it up / Give me one more chance, don't say this is the end / I need one more go until the final no / In some face / With something in my head / That's telling me it's sad / About these chances I've had / I say I just don't need no help / But sometimes I need help / It's just like everybody else / / What is wrong with me, what is wrong with me / Can't believe it, I can't believe it / Just sitting here feeling sorry for me / And I feel that, I just feel that / I need some help just to break free
LEAVING
I was never out to hurt you / I'd never go out of my way / To hurt anybody really / But for a long time / I felt the time for leaving / So it's bye now / I'll be seein' you / But I know that I will never ever see you / That's just how it goes / Well I cannot help my feelings / With scary thoughts I'm dealing / Ooh it's hard / With this cold cold world / We're dealing with / It came into my mind / It's just the way I'm feeling
WORLD NEEDS CHANGING
Help me / To fight this indifference / It's so wrong to turn our backs / To all that's going on in this world there / I remember a time we were not that careless / Maybe / There can be a difference / And feel for the one that comes next / We all want more than is our share / We turned cold and we turned shameless / We make it right / We make it better / It's about time / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / You can tell I'm so confused / But don't tell me what to do / We make it right / We make it better / It's about time / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / You can tell I'm so confused / But don't tell me what to do
A REASON TO UNDERSTAND
So sudden, too many things / It's maddening all down on me / Down on me / Not one thing or two things / All happening, all facing me / All facing me / Avoiding all that can put me in regrets / Give me a reason to understand / I'm aiming for peace, it's not what I get / Give me a reason to understand / I'm making some cash, but it's full on these debts / Give me a reason to understand / Pain in my head comes with pain in my chest / Give me a reason to understand / It's too much, it's too soon / It's too gloom and it's all here / It's all here / Not one thing, not two things / All happening, all facing me / All facing me / Build this life / And walls around it, protect myself / And this was life / Felt for some time good about myself / Ooh well
BURNING DESIRE
I don't know what to say / Just beggin' again to play / I didn't know what to do / You say you felt this too / It follows me everywhere I go / So here we go again I know / It's a burning desire / And I nearly nearly lose my mind / It's a burning desire / And I never ever felt this fine before / Plug in all these toys / And bring on all that noise / We may never get it right / But isn't it fun just to try / We thought that we could do without / I guess we can not leave this out of our lives / We're making it right now / We make it alright now / With friends that staying with me now / Been out of touch, but still somehow / I knew we were not really through / And after all this time / Still the same in mind / Old feelings staying with me now / But I think that's fine / A burning... It's a burning desire / With the temperature is rising higher / And if it goes higher / Ooh ooh wasn't it such a long time
SOME OF US
Those bands are changing / There's rearranging of sound / So they can have your money / Once say one thing / But do another thing now / Do you really think that's funny / Make it clear, make it clear / Some of us are not like that at all / We're child at heart / Some even have a child themselves / Why act like life is over / Right from the start we knew / We knew we'd never sell / But we are far from over / It's fine, the freedom / But it doesn't change my mind / The freedom
MIND
And I'd just been saying / That I've seen it all / But you showed me living / I didn't know at all / Now it's you / Going through my mind / All you do / Going through my mind / Complication / You bring it to its knees / Making happy is your treat / Making happy, yes indeed / I know survival isn't everything / I know surprises are the biggest thing / Going through life / So everything got / A great deal more / Through different levels / Open whole new doors / / Exaltation / Caught in a new breeze / Making happy is your treat / Making happy, yes indeed / I know survival isn't everything / I know surprises are the biggest thing / Going through life / You can never tell how long it lasts / I think it's better not to worry 'bout that / When I feel fine, let it come on me / When I feel fine, it's come over me
WONDER WHY
Ain't it just the funniest thing in the world / Something happens so bad that it hurts / You're in a hell of state, but the following day / Everything's o.k. / So many things in life / That I know just can't be right / A lot in here is just not right / Sometimes want to smash my head to the wall / No one there to answer my call / You almost get insane, but hard to explain / It sudden fades / Still many things in life / That I know just can't be right / A lot in here is just not right / Why, I wonder why / Everything is falling down / And I make it to another round / What is it to make me try / Everything just falls apart / And I care what's just in my heart / I feel it, but there's not much that I can do / Sometimes me and sometimes it's you / But some people can't cope, they end on a rope / 'Cause there's not much hope / But I'll cling on to life / 'Cause death is not a pretty sight / I rather stay here for some time
STOP FOR A MOMENT
I had some plans / They stood no chance / Somebody had changed them / Rearranged them / Do you know what's falling out, feelings / Do you know what I was about / I let things slide / It all goes by / Now what I always wanted / That's what I can't have / Do you know what I'm losing now, feelings / Do you know what I was about / Now stop for a moment / I'm not in a coma / I do not feel that I am real / This is not happening / This can't be happening / Though much has past / There's still time left / Just like me to waste it / Not celebrating it
JUST DO IT
All this talking / It can take you far / When you finish with this talking / Just do it then, if not now when / Just do it then, it's in your hands / Start beginning / What you've done so far / That is right, high time for winning / Just do it then, if not now when / Just do it then, it's in your hands / Just try / And realize / Don't compromise / You could make yourself so high / Just do / It's on you / Pull it through / Sleeping down can't be excused / Just do it then, if not now when / Just do it then, it's in your hands / You can dream it / When you wake up / You could be it too
OUTSIDE
The fridge turned low / Nothing in there anyway / And morning's cold / I can't dress that way / I go outside / It's better than at home / 'Cause when I'm home alone / My thoughts just kill me / Inside I can't hide / From telephone and bills / From headaches and those pills / That get me sleeping / The tube turned on / It's always been that way / I'm doing wrong / Won't better anyway
V.A. Bits Of Noise 2 (1995)
HARD TO THE CORE
There's many things that I don't like / And many things that others take for granted / Don't do much for me at all / But don't you push me away cos I'm here to stay / / And way deep down / Hard to the core / Safe and sound / Hard to the core / You can feel what others don't know / You're fully into hard to the core, / Hard to the core / / The radio, please shut it up / I may be one in a million with offbeat taste / I do not care what they might say / They're too stupid to judge me anyway / / And here we are / Hard to the core / Takes us far / Hard to the core / You can feel what others don't know / You're fully into hard to the core, / Hard to the core / / One, cos living should be fun / Two, what else is there to do / Three, it's what we're gonna be / Before they think they got us with the rest / With a job you can't respect and all that life brings next / / So this is us / Hard to the core / Feel the rush / Hard to the core / You can feel what others don't know / You're fully into hard to the core / / I tried so much to understand / What I do don't make much sense / But it feels so right for me / I don't know what else to be
V.A. Chicago Versus Amsterdam (1996)
I CAN NOT STAND
Another off day / And you won't make that right / Don't worry 'bout it / Just be myself tonight / / I'm staying / In and close the doors / Just me and the silence / I don't want nothing more / / Do I sometimes / Expect too much from life / The television / Shows it like some fun-filled ride / / I'm waiting / But I don't know what for / I hear seconds counting / I just feel like getting bored / / Hey hey / If I don't get away / It's getting harder then / Today I can not stand / Today I can not stand / Today I can not stand / / Hesitating / I'm staring at the door / But that means nothing / I'm just closing it once more
Believer (1997)
ANOTHER WORLD
Hee, kunnen we... / / After all work when it is late / I need a place where nothing's straight / We're standing / You're standing, like I / In another world / You'd never care / I'm strung out on a boy / This ain't the world / Of MTV or magazines / / All things in life make perfect sense / But not to me or to my friends / We're standing / You're standing, like I / In another world / Some friends die young / And others have a choice / This ain't the world / Of radio and TV-screens / / You won't let me fall / Don't let me fall / They let me fall / / How can they / Just how can they / Judge me without knowing / anything about me / They don't understand / Not a thing about me...
BELIEVER
Believer... believer... / / Am I a fool / If I'd my way? / You'd face my grin all day / It means so much / To live for fun / Each and everyday / / Boy that's tough / Do I know it / Keep your faith / Or you'll never hold it / And it's rough / We're getting colder / Enjoy life / Cos it's you who holds it / / When you feel low / So tired and old / Retaliate... Show them / You are still alive / Alive... Yeah-hey / Believer... believer... / / Say I'm a shell / I'm never too deep / And everything's a joke / Don't like to stress / Or get depressed / Like some others that I know / / Boy that's tough... etc. / / When you feel... etc.
WE STAND NEAR
We stand near... / ...Coming at you / ...Right in your face / ...Closer to life / ...Gonna be in your way / / Basic, so basic / Basic, so basic / Turn it up real high / High high high... / / We stand near... / ...Confrontation / ...No covering up here / ...No funny FX's / ...Gonna do it one take / / Basic, so basic... etc. etc. / / We stand near... / ...Ain't for the money / ...We just ain't that smart / ...We're not calculated / ...Straight from the heart / / Basic, so basic... etc. etc. / / Een, twee... / Een, twee, drie, vier...
MORE THAN ANYTHING
It is all right... / / I told you I was fine / When I said that I was fine / I was probably still high / And I thought that I could fly / But I really can't do anything / Ooh why I lie / Ooh why I always lie / / I was home and watched TV / I wanted someone calling me / And I called someone instead / I left a message that was it / Saying I was doing many things / / Ooh why I lie... etc. / / I see myself and it's strange / How the years can change your face / I'm older than I want to be / I'd say it never bothered me / It scares me more than anything...
TOO BLOODY NEAR
And I thought we're the same flesh and blood / Is there anything I've got, and they have not / Making them this hateful and fierce / What the hell is all happening here / / There must be something in my head that I miss / Cos I never ever seem to get this / / I don't feel I want to hear anymore / I don't learn anything from it no more / I just hope that we never get this here / Cos this madness is already far too near / / There must be something... etc. / / It's war, and wars / And it's so bloody near / A few hundred miles away / What is going here / Ooh I just don't understand it / Well I just don't understand / / There must be... etc. / / It's war... etc.
DETOUR
It is all right / Yes, I am doing fine / It is okay / It's just one of these days / / Come back another day / You're standing in my way / Am I not clear to you / Today I can not stand you / / That is all right / That wasn't very nice / What did I say / Why I behave this way / / Come back another day... etc. / / Detour... For everyone / Detour... Anyone / For criticizing some things / That I may have done / Go away... Everyone... Everyone / / I am too nice / And always doing right / That is okay / But just not for today / / Come back another day.. etc. / / Detour... Everyone... etc.
WILL I EVER TELL YOU
Was tripping high above your sky / All daily things I left behind / Cos you were there and I was too / Forgot the things I had to do / But well you know how that is like / I tried to tell you with a smile / I think that nothing last for long / I saw your face and bit my tongue / / Will I ever tell you that I love you / I don't know / / So was it me where you belong / Somehow I think your choice was wrong / I was in doubt, I'm never sure / I guess I'm just that kind of boy / And everything that I went too / You were going that way too / A little space would do some good / But how could I bring that to you / / Will I ever tell you... etc. / So lonely as I was before you came into my sight / Somehow I think them to be of the better times / Some words that I was thinking of I'd never dared to say / I wished that I had told them somewhere yesterday / / I looked around, that's no big deal / I fantasized I was still free / I noticed many to be cute / But walking home there I saw you / I saw you with another guy / Maybe your way to say goodbye / I can't believe what you have done / I can't believe you're really gone / / Will I ever tell you that I love you / I don't know / I don't know / I think I don't
NO WAY OUT
There is no way out / No way out / No way out... / / I once told a lie / And now I do it all the time / What I tell you / Well better don't believe it / Cos what you hear from me / are things you always wanted / to hear. But now I'm sorry / Because of friends I'm losing / / There is no way out... etc. / / At times I try / To make the wrong to right / But it's too late / Been doing all these bad things / I thought it was O.K. / To think more about myself / To place myself as first / And others always second / / There is no way out... etc. / / Now you know / Who I am / You don't like / Who I am / Now you see / The real me / Coming through / finally / / There is no way out... etc.
FOREVER FOR GOOD
Thing that I remember / When I was a kid / The further out of reach / Impossible, / And I wanted it / Impossible, / And I wanted it / / Must be a long way / to grow up / Cos I have not / even come half way / I wonder will I ever / / Good friends that I had / Come to think of it / Strange when things goes well / I just can not / seem to deal with it / I just can not / seem to deal with it / / Always wanted more / Many things I have lost / Easily got bored / Been that way forever / / Now my youth has gone away / There's nothing on my way / And easy turned to hard / Or never / Now I lick my wounds goodbye / There's ones I left behind / On ones I left behind / Forever for good / / Impossible, and I... etc. / / And it must... etc. / / Now my youth... etc.
WE HAD EVERYTHING
We, we had everything / I had everything and more / We, we had everything / I had everything and more / / I took time to realize / Now half my life / has gone by / I finally realize / In the part now bye bye... / / We, we had... etc. / / And in the rest that lies ahead / I do nothing but look back / Where can you go / with thirty-three / Never to be twenty-three / No-more, no-more, no way / / We, we had... etc.
FUCK YOU
Fuck you / And you, and you, and you... / I hate your generation / Fuck you / And you, and you, and you... / I don't like your generation / / Why do I have to be exposed / to the music they like? / It's a pile of shit / There is no music they like / They just keep a close eye / on all their trends / To piss away daddy's pay / with all their friends / / Fuck you... etc. etc. / / Their streetwise wear, / their gestures, their cool / In shop-window reflections / all the way to school / You talk so stupid / and you think that you rebel / But you swallow it all / and taken it so well / / Hey... / / You just keep... etc.
ALL I WANT
All I want is happy / All I want from you... / / Why do I / Feel every time / You ask too much / You want too much / / And I say that is not cool / Sometimes I feel I'm still at school / Or back at work, but I am not / I want this tension off my back / Life is hard at times / But I have realized / That I can deal with life / When I know good times / / All I want is happy... etc. / / Home from the job / But I feel I'm not / I want to relax / You get on my back / / And I ask please understand / It doesn't have to be this tense / Forget your pain, have some fun / Just look around, it can be done / Cos you stand not alone / At least you have a home / You're better off than some / Screw it all and get some fun / / All I want is happy... etc.
THEN IT WAS SO EASY
Could get away / So easily these days / We'd go on tour / I'd quit my job that day / / Money was tight / But we managed all right / Fun meant so much / We took it with all might / / I wish it was so easy / Back then it was not hard / What made it so uneasy / Cos now it gets so hard / Live problem and problem / It's decisions and sacrifice / I bend, I bend so much / Yet nothing works out right / Climb mountain and mountain / it's like a never ending fight / And I try, don't say I don't / I try hard, I try hard / / Now I work overtime / About every day I get / Need to get by / Surviving all these debts / / Money was tight... etc. / / I wish it was... etc. / / Live problem and... etc.
SO COLD
Anyone / Anything / Let me know / Cos I've been so cold / I've been so cold / I turned so blue / Maybe you, maybe you / If that was only true / I know that isn't true / / Anytime / Anywhere / Help me out / Cos I've been so down / I've been so down / I thought of you / Maybe you / Boy that would... / I know that isn't true / Cos it is never you / / Never you, never you / I just know / Cos I've been so cold...
Survival (1998)
DO YOU FEEL IT?
Is it you. Could that be right. Could it finally be right. I feel mag. I feel fine. About you and about I. Well it had to happen some time. And time is now. I got it right somehow. We feel the same about so many things. So many times. I want my time go. I want my time go with you. / / I feel for you. And that feels right. And I am not always right. But what I feel. It is so real. You blow my mind. Well it had to happen some time. It's finally here. Been waiting a million years. We feel the same about so many things. So many times. I want my time go. I want my time go with you. You... you... you... But do you feel it.
YOU WILL
You don't get it yet. But you will. Smoke cigarettes. You will. Talk to yourself. You will. Be bored like hell. Yes you will be too, too, too. / / And it can not be too soon. It's such a mess here in my room. I lie in bed until the afternoon. / / And it gets so hard. Not meaning anything. Not having any part. In your life. Cos in my life I'm drowning in my time. / / Watch stupid shows. You will. Hang on the phone. You will. Another trip. You will. And feel like shit. You will feel too. / / And it can not be too soon... etc
I WANTED MUCH
I know, it had to be the television. I dream night and day. I go, away with all my thoughts and visions. Into the bright day. / / And they're telling me not to go astray. When I tell them of all my dreams. And they're telling me don't drift away. Life's even harder than it seems. / / I wanted much. A choice I had. But I had to touch upon everything. Never could choose. And like some fool. Why did I had to ruin everything. / / You think, if you would ever think about me. That I was cold and hard. Thing is, it definitely ain't that simple. Cos I'm not cold and hard. / / I know I never should have left that job. And I sure should have stayed with you. I know I never should have turned away. From all these things that did me good. / / I wanted much... etc / / Yeah yeah yeah yeah hey... Yeah, I feel bad. I feel sad about the way now. Things turned out. I can't get out. I don't do much. I drink too much. Just let it go.
WEAR MY HEART
Well you said I was a strange strange guy. Maybe a little queer. Don't need no-one in my life. And you think that's weird. / / So we fight and run. You wear my heart. Though she's your number one. You wear my heart. / / Some will find this strange. But you will understand. Cos you will always understand. / / And anyone could need a friend like you. Tell you things that I would normally not do. And I would not know the things that I would do. If anything would ever happen bad to you. No I wouldn't know. / / If that time should come. You wear my heart. I may be strong but. You wear my heart. / / And this will never change. But you will understand. Cos you will always understand. / / And anyone could need a friend like you. Tell you things that I would normally not do. And I would not know the things that I would do. If anything would ever happen bad to you. If anything would ever happen.
CAGING ME IN
So friends, where are you all now. It all had changed somehow. And for a moment. Though so far a way. There was a moment. I remember punk rock days. / / I don't care no-more. It's been taken far too long. I don't know what for. I followed everyone. I no longer see... The use in doing things... That never set me free. But caging me more in. / / The end, when everything went down. We did not see somehow. And for a minute. Though so long ago. There was a minute. I wasn't quite that old. / / I don't care... etc / / But there's times now. I wonder where I am at. Cos at the time now. Feel so useless. / / I don't care... etc
THAT'S ALRIGHT
You want to know. I had to go. When you get drunk. And let your worries show. You see me through. I stand accused. At these times I don't know what to do. You know what I wanted. I wanted you to be just like me. Be easy like me, like me. / / Well that's all right. And that's O.K. Nothing really matters to me anyway. Well, I'm all right. And I'm O.K. I'm easy down the way. / / What is this now. You've changed somehow. You say you grew up. So the fun is out. What do you want. Why all these plans. So sudden your life has to be intense. You know what I wanted. I wanted you to be like before. No more worries no more. / / Well that's all right... etc
UPSTREAM DOWNSTREAM
Life can be rough. Life can be tough. A deep green sea. Gentle and mean. / / Life can be cruel. Turn you into a fool. Each and every day. Never treats you the same. It's the same... all the same. / / Upstream downstream / / And we get by. Get by, get by and find a way you'll see. When we believe in what we are. / / You say there's not much that you need. To stay alive... More you don't need. And it is only what you want. Yes it is only what you want.
WHERE DO YOU GO?
And one day there you go. You're leaving home and little by little. You find it's like they've told. You struggle hard. You struggle hard. Yes and how. You finally found a town. And a place to live now. But then. Where do you go. / / Anything that you want. And you don't want. Well that's called living. Dreams are one by one... Forfilled, the fun not stretching that far. No matter where you are. There's always a missing part. But then. Where do you go. / / You look around. A lot of things are lost and found. Whatever out there. To find it you'd go anywhere. Or chasing that dream. Or anything you'd like to be. Search for it, but where. Tell me where do you go.
GO FOR ALL
Been told I do not think too much. Spending money when short on cash. And go out drinking far too much. And promise myself never to do that. / / I know and I do it. It shows I'm so stupid. Or maybe it's sometimes I don't give a damn. Or maybe it's sometimes I don't give a damn. I said to meet you somewhere. Keep in mind I might not be there. It's wrong to depend on me. I hope you still have a friend in me. / / I know and I do it... etc / / Hey, all I know. I go for all the things I know. Hey, and also. I go for things I do not know. We all have our mistakes. Some bad habits we can't shake. But we make such a team. Doing things just how we feel. / / I know and I do it... etc
KICK IT
I needed fine. I should have known. I now want it all the time. Me, tripping higher. Straight up for the sky. / / I can no. Kick it, kick the habit... / / I had to try. Tired of feeling low. Being down's a waste of life. Me, going higher. Cos life sucks most of times. / / I can no. Kick it, kick the habit... / / Lost in time. Won't make my work in time again. I feel fine. But around me no-one understands. Kick it, kick the habit... Kick it, kick the habit... / / I get by. I really really know so. I could survive. Without, I tried it. But then I thought, ooh why. / / I can no. Kick it, kick the habit...
HARD TO THE CORE
There's many things that I don't like. There's many things that others take for granted. They don't do much for me at all. But don't you push me away. Cos I'm here to stay. / / And way deep down. Hard to the core. Safe and sound. Hard to the core. You can feel what others don't know. You're really into. Hard to the core. / / The radio... please turn it off. I may be one in the million with offbeat taste. But I don't care what they all say. They're too stupid to judge me anyway. / / And what we are. Hard to the core. Take us far. Hard to the core. / / You can be what others don't know. You're really into. Hard to the core. One, cos living should be fun. Two, what else is there to do. Three, it's what we're gonna be. Before they can put you with the rest. With a job you can't respect. And all that will come next.
THAT'S WHERE I'M NOW
Sometimes I think so much. Wonder what I've been doing. What happened with my plans. Just what have I been doing. These places far away. I always wanted to see. They seem so far away. I know I'll never ever see. I've got a job, because I needed, money to pay what is needed. Life is getting so expensive. Don't get any time to travel. Stuck here working from 9 to 5. Getting home and that is my life. I know there must be something more. But I don't really see much more. I'm not the only one. And that makes my survival. And if you find someone. Feeling the same sometimes and. If you can talk about it. That makes it so much better. Even when life is shit. It's better when together, yeah. After work I get so tired. I need someone to make it lighter. And to go out and have some fun. To piss away my pay with fun. I know I don't get anywhere. But sometimes I don't even care. As long I do not feel alone. Can't stand to be too long alone. That's where I'm now.
I LOVE YOU
See you run. And that's fun. Cos I know. Why you go. / / I see you through. You did something bad. Cos you're no good. You are so bad. / / I love you. Do what you do. Do what you do. You can not be trusted. Ooh no. You lie like you must to. I know. / / See you cheat. And that's neat. Like a child. Running wild. / / I see you through. I am that smart. But you're so cute. You twist my heart. / / I love you... etc / / Don't take shit from anyone. Like I see a younger me. You can take all for a run. Like the way I used to be. I don't turn away from you. Life's a funny game with you. / / I love you... etc
X RUINS EVERYTHING
I've looked around everywhere. And miss that certain fire. Of what we have and share. We've taken things much higher / / It's in everything we do. Closer, we touch soul. You and I both knowing / / Sex ruins everything / / We do it with everyone. At times forget their faces. And I don't care whatever you've been doing. Cos I know that. They won't share you the way I'm doing. Let them find out that / / I know you had your share. Their lies made you so tired. It makes you so aware. We've got something finer. / / It's in everything we do... etc
LIES FOR SURVIVAL
Years... We're looking back now. As if we've learned from our mistakes. No fears... As we gave up life long ago. What we have now is not what we always wanted. Just who are we fooling anyway. / / And nothing more that we live for is true. Nothing is true... for you. We are secure. Cos we ignore the truth. Ignore the truth. Ignore the truth. / / And will it do. Till time is through. Will it do. Enough for you. Or will you know. You have been sold. Will you know. Oooh. Will you know. / / Lies for survival. What for... When it is sure. That there is nothing more.
BLENDED
Look at me now. No image and no show. I should dress up. But I don't care no more for show. I could be just. Any boy next door. But in some punk band. You never guessed that, I am sure. / / Cos I'm blended. Blended – ended. I am blended in a blender. Blended. / / I've seen too much. And it's all the same. The kids will rebel. But for how long, anyway. / / Cos I'm blended. Blended – ended. I am blended in a blender. Blended. / / I vaguely remember how I once was. Against everybody not like I was. I somehow remember the scene now dead. But I don't remember what went in my head. / / Cos I'm blended. Blended – ended. I am blended in a blender. Blended.
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THIS CHOICE IS MINE
I'd ever mentioned / Certain days don't go so deep / Nothing but friendship / ...Getting me through another week / / You sit there, you tell me / So far nothing I have reached / When you sit there and tell me / At least I'm doing what I want and... / / This choice is mine / This choice is mine / / Heard you ever mention / "Doesn't matter what you want / All the things you ever wanted / ...Don't fit in the real world, no" / / You sit there, you tell me / Nothing I have reached / When you sit there and tell me / At least I'm doing what I want and... / / This choice is mine / This choice is mine / / And when I'm out there / Something tries to hold me down / I know you try to hold me down / Better look at yourself, cos... / / This choice is mine / This choice is mine
Punk Rock Nation (1994)
FRIENDS ARE BEST
It's me and friends. And friends are best. We had this falling out. Thought we could do without and once we used to be this thick. I put my pride aside and then I got you on the line. And now I'm really glad I did. It's me and friends. And friends are the best. Cos out there on the street. Just looking at my feet. You feel an outcast when alone. But now when things go wrong it doesn't hurt that strong no more. Cos I can call you on the phone. When I had no friends no more, there just wasn't any fun no more. Felt that I shut all the doors to all that I'd been living for. And there couldn't be much more that I felt was worth living for. No more alone. When it's high time. When it's the right time. If there's anything that I can do for you. You know that I thank you for being there just at the right time. Wasn't it high time. It's me and friends and then it's fine.
PUNK NEVER DIE
Summers don't go slow and so just before you know. So be it that you're walking in the rain on your own. The world's insane. You've got so much inside, but that just won't see the light. Won't see it. Still you're walking on while your mind makes up a song. Feel you work too much and you're always in a rush. In need for something else. Maybe something for yourself. You need fresh air to breathe. It's a thought you can not leave. Not before too soon your head is working up a tune. And put it to a tape deck. Sing out all these lines. Shout it if you feel bad and make it in a rhyme. Punk never die for I. Never die. No never die. One say: Hey hey hey. Aah aah aah. When I'm home and close the door. I want to hear that song once more. That song that is about my life. And it makes me feel alright. I want to hear some energy. Could you give it loud to me. There is young kids, there on stage, and they sure know how to play.
READY TO LEARN
Don't you know I feel like crying. Sometimes it dies here deep inside. What people do just to eachother. Do we all really have to fight. We make it better anyway if we listen to what others have to say. Ready to learn. Make it to school somehow. Absorbing what is around now. Some people change, others they never. But no one is the same inside. If someone is totally different. Does it mean we have to fight. We make it better, without doubt, if we knew what others are about. Ready to learn. Going the world around. Digging what's in your town.
WHAT IS IT
Well here again I strike the lucky. So you're the one that's gonna make me happy. But everytime we go downtown I see the way you look around. It makes me wonder what I really found. It's you don't think the way I do, but I need someone too. I hate it when you say you're undecided and your heart's divided. If you give me nothing. What am I supposed to do. I'm more cynical than before. I'm not a little kid no more. My feet on the ground. I am not wrapped around your fingers. Hey hey hey. So what is it you're gonna do. There are times you come on easy. And there are times it's just impossible to reach you. And now it's just a matter of time and you'll vanish from my mind. I'd feel much better with this all behind.
EXPANDING EXPANDING
Dear old mother, I'm gonna make you very proud. But dear old father, he don't believe that anyhow. I'm growing older. Still at the same old job, cos I need the money. Ooh I wish I had enough. Time and time again. I don't know when. I don't know how, but somehow... Turn on the tellie. Come home very late at night. So goddamn tired, but full with plans tonight. But I go on dreaming and sleep the whole night through. One day I'll change, cos I know I have to. Making it work this time and if I got some time aside, I use it with all might. I use it to grow further. Making it anyway. Gonna making it anyhow. Gonna make it this time around. Expanding. Ooh Lord I'll be expanding.
TRULY INTENSIVE
Truly intensive, madly immensive. I found a perfect fit. Just suits my life and that is it. We play these tunes we like. That's us, that is our lives. Do we care... No. About promotion. Do we care... No. We cross the ocean with music. Fill the globe with music.
LEAVING
I was never out to hurt you. I'd never go out of my way to hurt anybody really. But for a long time I felt the time for leaving. So it's bye now, I'll be seein' you. But I know that I will never ever see you. That's just how it goes. Well I can not help my feelings. With scary thoughts I'm dealing. Ooh it's hard with this cold cold world we're dealing with. It came into my mind. It's just the way I'm feeling. Ooh ooh aah aah. Ooh ooh hey hey hey.
STILL IN A PUNKBAND
Yeah yeah yeah. Aah aah aah. Ooh yeah, stop and stare at people with funny hair. But times like that are just no longer there. Sunny days seemed so much brighter. Winter days seemed so much lighter, yeah. And that's too bad. Say, it isn't all that way. Some things will never change. Somehow I'm still the same. Go with the flow, with all the things you know. You turn your back when fortune is your goal. Then funny days seemed so much brighter. Off off days seemed so much lighter then. That be the path you chose. Say, don't have to be that way. Who says you have to change. Somehow we're still the same. Still in a punkband. Yeah yeah yeah. Aah aah aah. Ooh yes. Mum and dad don't understand it. Mum and dad, they just don't understand it.
EVIL RUINS THE WORLD
Evil ruins the world. I hold on to my possessions too tightly sometimes. And I step on too many people. I should keep that in mind. We find it. We fight this evil in me, in you. Can let not, should let not. I say things and I do things that are simply not right. I should consider other ones feelings and don't deny them their rights.
BURNING DESIRE
I don't know what to say. Just beggin' again to play. I didn't know what to do. You say you felt this too. It follows me everywhere I go, so here we go again I know. It's a burning desire. And I nearly nearly lose my mind. It's a burning desire and I never ever felt this fine before. Plug in all these toys and bring on all that noise. We may never get it right, but isn't it fun just to try. We thought that we could do without. I guess we can not leave this out of our lives. We're making it right now. We make it alright now. With friends that staying with me now. Been out of touch, but still somehow I knew we were not really through. And after all this time; still the same in mind. Old feelings staying with me now, but I think that's fine. A burning... It's a burning desire with the temperature is rising higher. And if it goes higher... Ooh ooh wasn't it such a long time.
SOME OF US
Those bands are changing. There's rearranging of sound, so they can have your money. Once say one thing, but do another thing now. Do you really think that's funny. Make it clear. Make it clear. Some of us are not like that at all. We're child at heart. Some even have a child themselves. Why act like life is over. Right from the start we knew, we knew we'd never sell. But we are far from over. It's fine, the freedom, but it doesn't change my mind. The freedom.
DAMN YOU
Christ and Allah rules. Well that ain't no excuse to kill about all that meets the eye. Well, your book don't make it right. Cold bloody murders can never be justified. Damn you. Bad thing that you do. Even right now, right here where bodies pile up on streets, we fear those stupid people who still believe in God and think they have the right to take another's life. Don't they know. Don't they understand it. It's getting out of hand. It's way way out of hand. They praise the mighty Lord on your television and all I see is the hate coming from religion.
STOP FOR A MOMENT
I had some plans. They stood no chance. Somebody had changed them and re-arranged them. Do you know what's falling out, feelings. Do you know what I was about. I let things slide. It all goes by. Now what I always wanted. That's what I can't have. Do you know what I'm losing now, feelings. Do you know what I was about. Now stop for a moment. I'm not in a coma. I do not feel that I am real. This is not happening. This can't be happening. Though much has past, there's still time left. Just like me to waste it. Not celebrating it.
ALL AROUND ME
Get me out of the sun and spray me water, I'll be burning hot. Ooh I'll be fine. Yes, I will be alright. What's around me. What I see. What's around me surrounds me. What's around me; city blocks 2000 feet all around me, around me. Make me whole. Get my butt out of this hole. To the mountains far from home. Where the lakes flow, there I want to go. Get me out having fun all day. Be happier with what I've got. Ooh I'll be fine. Yes, I will be alright. 10.000 people in my street around me. Make me whole with the next train out this hole to the beaches far from home. Coming with me or I will go alone.
FIRE AND ICE
Yes I used to walk this way. And then it was my special way. Just to stand out from the crowd, but now I may have chickened out. I'm dressed like anyone around. I'm just this other jerk in town. And sometimes share a narrow mind, which is so favorable these times. I let go. It's impossible to hold these thoughts I used to believe in. Don't dare to say something ain't right. It's fire and ice. Slowly lose the agressive touch and the years don't help real much. I feel like letting things just slide. It make it easy getting by.
PUNK ROCK NATION
We came from Garageland and we've been really good friends. We play our one-chord wonders just to make our stand. Now from Hong Kong Garden right to L.A. Town, we will send you our tapes. Cos you may like our sound. There's nothing quite like it. To get rid of frustration. So if you are a stranger in a strange town, put your headphones on and have a celebration. This is punk rock nation all over the nation. Our past has been immense. Time's been really wild then. We can not bring them back, but hey, that's not our plan. This music is our live and played the way we like. And when we do a gig, it's always like the first time. And the feeling, we like it. To be X-generating. We knew it was a real thing, when driving home, had the radio on and they played Penetration. You'd think that getting older would turn you straight and life'd be boring. But you and I get older with a feeling for more more more more, ooh yeah.
Funeral Oration (1995)
STILL IN A PUNK BAND
Yeah yeah yeah. Aah aah aah. Ooh yeah. / Stop and stare at people with funny hair / But times like that are just no longer there / Sunny days seemed so much brighter / Winter days seemed so much lighter, yeah / And that's too bad / Say, it isn't all that way / Some things will never change / Somehow I'm still the same / Go with the flow / With all the things you know / You turn your back when fortune is your goal / Then funny days seemed so much brighter / Off off days seemed so much lighter then / That be the path you chose / Say, don't have to be that way / Who says you have to change / Somehow we're still the same / Still in a punk band / Yeah yeah yeah aah aah aah Ooh yes / Mum and dad don't understand it / They just don't understand it
NEVER DIE
Summers don't go slow / And so just before you know / So be it that you're walking / In the rain on your own / The world's insane / You've got so much inside / But that just won't see the light / Won't see it / Still you're walking on / While your mind makes up a song / Feel you work too much / And you're always in a rush / In need for something else / Maybe something for yourself / You need fresh air to breathe / It's a thought you can not leave / Not before too soon / Your head is working up a tune / And put it to a tape deck / Sing out all these lines / Shout it if you feel bad / And make it in a rhyme / Punk never die for I / Never die. No never die / When I'm home and close the door / I want to hear that song once more / That song that is about my life / And it makes me feel alright / I want to hear some energy / Could you give it loud to me / There is young kids there on stage / And they sure know how to play
WARRIOR
Warrior, like a warrior / You were a warrior, like a warrior / Am I still in your head / Still in your mind / And I think it's too bad / Yes it is too sad / About early times / We could make money, but walked away / We had better things to do these days / Warrior, like a warrior / You were warrior, like a warrior / Nothing that they said was right / We were fighting for our rights / Nothing that we did was wrong / We chose our thing and called it punk / Somewhere back in your head / Somewhere in your mind / Is there maybe some left with the past so dead / Everything went / Without a fraction left of it / I understand that's just the way it is / / And it's true / Who am I to judge this way / About the kids alive today / Pretend we're better is a big mistake to do / Knowing what we had behind / Don't it seem like better times / When you remember what you were like / Like a warrior in time, like a warrior in time...
WHAT IS IT
Well here again I strike the lucky / So you're the one that's gonna make me happy / But everytime we go downtown / I see the way you look around / It makes me wonder what I really found / It's you don't think the way I do / But, I need someone too / I hate it when you say you're undecided / And your heart's divided / If you give me nothing / What am I supposed to do / I'm more cynical than before / I'm not a little kid no more / My feet on the ground / I am not wrapped around your fingers / Hey hey hey / So what is it you're gonna do / There are times you come on easy / And there are times it's just impossible / To reach you / And now it's just a matter of time / And you'll vanish from my mind / I'd feel much better with all behind
EXPANDING
Dear old mother / I'm gonna make you very proud / But dear old father / He don't believe that anyhow / I'm growing older / Still at the same old job / 'Cause I need the money / Ooh I wish I had enough / Time and time again / I don't know when / I don't know how, but somehow / Turn on the tellie / Come home very late at night / So goddamn tired / But full with plans tonight / But I go on dreaming / And sleep the whole night through / One day I'll change / 'Cause I know I have to / Making it work this time / And if I got some time aside / I use it with all might / I use it to grow further / Making it anyway / Gonna make it anyhow / Gonna make it this time around / Expanding / Ooh Lord I'll be expanding
ONE MORE TIME
I feel strange / Afraid of getting old / Turning fat, turning bald / My heart turns to stone / The days don't hardly feel the same / When I work too much these days / The pleasure comes with pain / And if I had more chances / I would never have to run away / I take the things that come my way / Give me one more time, then I do it right / Give me one more shot, I swear I won't fuck it up / Give me one more chance, don't say this is the end / I need one more go until the final no / In some face / With something in my head / That's telling me it's sad / About these chances I've had / I say I just don't need no help / But sometimes I need help / It's just like everybody else / / What is wrong with me, what is wrong with me / Can't believe it, I can't believe it / Just sitting here feeling sorry for me / And I feel that, I just feel that / I need some help just to break free
LEAVING
I was never out to hurt you / I'd never go out of my way / To hurt anybody really / But for a long time / I felt the time for leaving / So it's bye now / I'll be seein' you / But I know that I will never ever see you / That's just how it goes / Well I cannot help my feelings / With scary thoughts I'm dealing / Ooh it's hard / With this cold cold world / We're dealing with / It came into my mind / It's just the way I'm feeling
WORLD NEEDS CHANGING
Help me / To fight this indifference / It's so wrong to turn our backs / To all that's going on in this world there / I remember a time we were not that careless / Maybe / There can be a difference / And feel for the one that comes next / We all want more than is our share / We turned cold and we turned shameless / We make it right / We make it better / It's about time / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / You can tell I'm so confused / But don't tell me what to do / We make it right / We make it better / It's about time / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / Changing, the world needs changing / You can tell I'm so confused / But don't tell me what to do
A REASON TO UNDERSTAND
So sudden, too many things / It's maddening all down on me / Down on me / Not one thing or two things / All happening, all facing me / All facing me / Avoiding all that can put me in regrets / Give me a reason to understand / I'm aiming for peace, it's not what I get / Give me a reason to understand / I'm making some cash, but it's full on these debts / Give me a reason to understand / Pain in my head comes with pain in my chest / Give me a reason to understand / It's too much, it's too soon / It's too gloom and it's all here / It's all here / Not one thing, not two things / All happening, all facing me / All facing me / Build this life / And walls around it, protect myself / And this was life / Felt for some time good about myself / Ooh well
BURNING DESIRE
I don't know what to say / Just beggin' again to play / I didn't know what to do / You say you felt this too / It follows me everywhere I go / So here we go again I know / It's a burning desire / And I nearly nearly lose my mind / It's a burning desire / And I never ever felt this fine before / Plug in all these toys / And bring on all that noise / We may never get it right / But isn't it fun just to try / We thought that we could do without / I guess we can not leave this out of our lives / We're making it right now / We make it alright now / With friends that staying with me now / Been out of touch, but still somehow / I knew we were not really through / And after all this time / Still the same in mind / Old feelings staying with me now / But I think that's fine / A burning... It's a burning desire / With the temperature is rising higher / And if it goes higher / Ooh ooh wasn't it such a long time
SOME OF US
Those bands are changing / There's rearranging of sound / So they can have your money / Once say one thing / But do another thing now / Do you really think that's funny / Make it clear, make it clear / Some of us are not like that at all / We're child at heart / Some even have a child themselves / Why act like life is over / Right from the start we knew / We knew we'd never sell / But we are far from over / It's fine, the freedom / But it doesn't change my mind / The freedom
MIND
And I'd just been saying / That I've seen it all / But you showed me living / I didn't know at all / Now it's you / Going through my mind / All you do / Going through my mind / Complication / You bring it to its knees / Making happy is your treat / Making happy, yes indeed / I know survival isn't everything / I know surprises are the biggest thing / Going through life / So everything got / A great deal more / Through different levels / Open whole new doors / / Exaltation / Caught in a new breeze / Making happy is your treat / Making happy, yes indeed / I know survival isn't everything / I know surprises are the biggest thing / Going through life / You can never tell how long it lasts / I think it's better not to worry 'bout that / When I feel fine, let it come on me / When I feel fine, it's come over me
WONDER WHY
Ain't it just the funniest thing in the world / Something happens so bad that it hurts / You're in a hell of state, but the following day / Everything's o.k. / So many things in life / That I know just can't be right / A lot in here is just not right / Sometimes want to smash my head to the wall / No one there to answer my call / You almost get insane, but hard to explain / It sudden fades / Still many things in life / That I know just can't be right / A lot in here is just not right / Why, I wonder why / Everything is falling down / And I make it to another round / What is it to make me try / Everything just falls apart / And I care what's just in my heart / I feel it, but there's not much that I can do / Sometimes me and sometimes it's you / But some people can't cope, they end on a rope / 'Cause there's not much hope / But I'll cling on to life / 'Cause death is not a pretty sight / I rather stay here for some time
STOP FOR A MOMENT
I had some plans / They stood no chance / Somebody had changed them / Rearranged them / Do you know what's falling out, feelings / Do you know what I was about / I let things slide / It all goes by / Now what I always wanted / That's what I can't have / Do you know what I'm losing now, feelings / Do you know what I was about / Now stop for a moment / I'm not in a coma / I do not feel that I am real / This is not happening / This can't be happening / Though much has past / There's still time left / Just like me to waste it / Not celebrating it
JUST DO IT
All this talking / It can take you far / When you finish with this talking / Just do it then, if not now when / Just do it then, it's in your hands / Start beginning / What you've done so far / That is right, high time for winning / Just do it then, if not now when / Just do it then, it's in your hands / Just try / And realize / Don't compromise / You could make yourself so high / Just do / It's on you / Pull it through / Sleeping down can't be excused / Just do it then, if not now when / Just do it then, it's in your hands / You can dream it / When you wake up / You could be it too
OUTSIDE
The fridge turned low / Nothing in there anyway / And morning's cold / I can't dress that way / I go outside / It's better than at home / 'Cause when I'm home alone / My thoughts just kill me / Inside I can't hide / From telephone and bills / From headaches and those pills / That get me sleeping / The tube turned on / It's always been that way / I'm doing wrong / Won't better anyway
V.A. Bits Of Noise 2 (1995)
HARD TO THE CORE
There's many things that I don't like / And many things that others take for granted / Don't do much for me at all / But don't you push me away cos I'm here to stay / / And way deep down / Hard to the core / Safe and sound / Hard to the core / You can feel what others don't know / You're fully into hard to the core, / Hard to the core / / The radio, please shut it up / I may be one in a million with offbeat taste / I do not care what they might say / They're too stupid to judge me anyway / / And here we are / Hard to the core / Takes us far / Hard to the core / You can feel what others don't know / You're fully into hard to the core, / Hard to the core / / One, cos living should be fun / Two, what else is there to do / Three, it's what we're gonna be / Before they think they got us with the rest / With a job you can't respect and all that life brings next / / So this is us / Hard to the core / Feel the rush / Hard to the core / You can feel what others don't know / You're fully into hard to the core / / I tried so much to understand / What I do don't make much sense / But it feels so right for me / I don't know what else to be
V.A. Chicago Versus Amsterdam (1996)
I CAN NOT STAND
Another off day / And you won't make that right / Don't worry 'bout it / Just be myself tonight / / I'm staying / In and close the doors / Just me and the silence / I don't want nothing more / / Do I sometimes / Expect too much from life / The television / Shows it like some fun-filled ride / / I'm waiting / But I don't know what for / I hear seconds counting / I just feel like getting bored / / Hey hey / If I don't get away / It's getting harder then / Today I can not stand / Today I can not stand / Today I can not stand / / Hesitating / I'm staring at the door / But that means nothing / I'm just closing it once more
Believer (1997)
ANOTHER WORLD
Hee, kunnen we... / / After all work when it is late / I need a place where nothing's straight / We're standing / You're standing, like I / In another world / You'd never care / I'm strung out on a boy / This ain't the world / Of MTV or magazines / / All things in life make perfect sense / But not to me or to my friends / We're standing / You're standing, like I / In another world / Some friends die young / And others have a choice / This ain't the world / Of radio and TV-screens / / You won't let me fall / Don't let me fall / They let me fall / / How can they / Just how can they / Judge me without knowing / anything about me / They don't understand / Not a thing about me...
BELIEVER
Believer... believer... / / Am I a fool / If I'd my way? / You'd face my grin all day / It means so much / To live for fun / Each and everyday / / Boy that's tough / Do I know it / Keep your faith / Or you'll never hold it / And it's rough / We're getting colder / Enjoy life / Cos it's you who holds it / / When you feel low / So tired and old / Retaliate... Show them / You are still alive / Alive... Yeah-hey / Believer... believer... / / Say I'm a shell / I'm never too deep / And everything's a joke / Don't like to stress / Or get depressed / Like some others that I know / / Boy that's tough... etc. / / When you feel... etc.
WE STAND NEAR
We stand near... / ...Coming at you / ...Right in your face / ...Closer to life / ...Gonna be in your way / / Basic, so basic / Basic, so basic / Turn it up real high / High high high... / / We stand near... / ...Confrontation / ...No covering up here / ...No funny FX's / ...Gonna do it one take / / Basic, so basic... etc. etc. / / We stand near... / ...Ain't for the money / ...We just ain't that smart / ...We're not calculated / ...Straight from the heart / / Basic, so basic... etc. etc. / / Een, twee... / Een, twee, drie, vier...
MORE THAN ANYTHING
It is all right... / / I told you I was fine / When I said that I was fine / I was probably still high / And I thought that I could fly / But I really can't do anything / Ooh why I lie / Ooh why I always lie / / I was home and watched TV / I wanted someone calling me / And I called someone instead / I left a message that was it / Saying I was doing many things / / Ooh why I lie... etc. / / I see myself and it's strange / How the years can change your face / I'm older than I want to be / I'd say it never bothered me / It scares me more than anything...
TOO BLOODY NEAR
And I thought we're the same flesh and blood / Is there anything I've got, and they have not / Making them this hateful and fierce / What the hell is all happening here / / There must be something in my head that I miss / Cos I never ever seem to get this / / I don't feel I want to hear anymore / I don't learn anything from it no more / I just hope that we never get this here / Cos this madness is already far too near / / There must be something... etc. / / It's war, and wars / And it's so bloody near / A few hundred miles away / What is going here / Ooh I just don't understand it / Well I just don't understand / / There must be... etc. / / It's war... etc.
DETOUR
It is all right / Yes, I am doing fine / It is okay / It's just one of these days / / Come back another day / You're standing in my way / Am I not clear to you / Today I can not stand you / / That is all right / That wasn't very nice / What did I say / Why I behave this way / / Come back another day... etc. / / Detour... For everyone / Detour... Anyone / For criticizing some things / That I may have done / Go away... Everyone... Everyone / / I am too nice / And always doing right / That is okay / But just not for today / / Come back another day.. etc. / / Detour... Everyone... etc.
WILL I EVER TELL YOU
Was tripping high above your sky / All daily things I left behind / Cos you were there and I was too / Forgot the things I had to do / But well you know how that is like / I tried to tell you with a smile / I think that nothing last for long / I saw your face and bit my tongue / / Will I ever tell you that I love you / I don't know / / So was it me where you belong / Somehow I think your choice was wrong / I was in doubt, I'm never sure / I guess I'm just that kind of boy / And everything that I went too / You were going that way too / A little space would do some good / But how could I bring that to you / / Will I ever tell you... etc. / So lonely as I was before you came into my sight / Somehow I think them to be of the better times / Some words that I was thinking of I'd never dared to say / I wished that I had told them somewhere yesterday / / I looked around, that's no big deal / I fantasized I was still free / I noticed many to be cute / But walking home there I saw you / I saw you with another guy / Maybe your way to say goodbye / I can't believe what you have done / I can't believe you're really gone / / Will I ever tell you that I love you / I don't know / I don't know / I think I don't
NO WAY OUT
There is no way out / No way out / No way out... / / I once told a lie / And now I do it all the time / What I tell you / Well better don't believe it / Cos what you hear from me / are things you always wanted / to hear. But now I'm sorry / Because of friends I'm losing / / There is no way out... etc. / / At times I try / To make the wrong to right / But it's too late / Been doing all these bad things / I thought it was O.K. / To think more about myself / To place myself as first / And others always second / / There is no way out... etc. / / Now you know / Who I am / You don't like / Who I am / Now you see / The real me / Coming through / finally / / There is no way out... etc.
FOREVER FOR GOOD
Thing that I remember / When I was a kid / The further out of reach / Impossible, / And I wanted it / Impossible, / And I wanted it / / Must be a long way / to grow up / Cos I have not / even come half way / I wonder will I ever / / Good friends that I had / Come to think of it / Strange when things goes well / I just can not / seem to deal with it / I just can not / seem to deal with it / / Always wanted more / Many things I have lost / Easily got bored / Been that way forever / / Now my youth has gone away / There's nothing on my way / And easy turned to hard / Or never / Now I lick my wounds goodbye / There's ones I left behind / On ones I left behind / Forever for good / / Impossible, and I... etc. / / And it must... etc. / / Now my youth... etc.
WE HAD EVERYTHING
We, we had everything / I had everything and more / We, we had everything / I had everything and more / / I took time to realize / Now half my life / has gone by / I finally realize / In the part now bye bye... / / We, we had... etc. / / And in the rest that lies ahead / I do nothing but look back / Where can you go / with thirty-three / Never to be twenty-three / No-more, no-more, no way / / We, we had... etc.
FUCK YOU
Fuck you / And you, and you, and you... / I hate your generation / Fuck you / And you, and you, and you... / I don't like your generation / / Why do I have to be exposed / to the music they like? / It's a pile of shit / There is no music they like / They just keep a close eye / on all their trends / To piss away daddy's pay / with all their friends / / Fuck you... etc. etc. / / Their streetwise wear, / their gestures, their cool / In shop-window reflections / all the way to school / You talk so stupid / and you think that you rebel / But you swallow it all / and taken it so well / / Hey... / / You just keep... etc.
ALL I WANT
All I want is happy / All I want from you... / / Why do I / Feel every time / You ask too much / You want too much / / And I say that is not cool / Sometimes I feel I'm still at school / Or back at work, but I am not / I want this tension off my back / Life is hard at times / But I have realized / That I can deal with life / When I know good times / / All I want is happy... etc. / / Home from the job / But I feel I'm not / I want to relax / You get on my back / / And I ask please understand / It doesn't have to be this tense / Forget your pain, have some fun / Just look around, it can be done / Cos you stand not alone / At least you have a home / You're better off than some / Screw it all and get some fun / / All I want is happy... etc.
THEN IT WAS SO EASY
Could get away / So easily these days / We'd go on tour / I'd quit my job that day / / Money was tight / But we managed all right / Fun meant so much / We took it with all might / / I wish it was so easy / Back then it was not hard / What made it so uneasy / Cos now it gets so hard / Live problem and problem / It's decisions and sacrifice / I bend, I bend so much / Yet nothing works out right / Climb mountain and mountain / it's like a never ending fight / And I try, don't say I don't / I try hard, I try hard / / Now I work overtime / About every day I get / Need to get by / Surviving all these debts / / Money was tight... etc. / / I wish it was... etc. / / Live problem and... etc.
SO COLD
Anyone / Anything / Let me know / Cos I've been so cold / I've been so cold / I turned so blue / Maybe you, maybe you / If that was only true / I know that isn't true / / Anytime / Anywhere / Help me out / Cos I've been so down / I've been so down / I thought of you / Maybe you / Boy that would... / I know that isn't true / Cos it is never you / / Never you, never you / I just know / Cos I've been so cold...
Survival (1998)
DO YOU FEEL IT?
Is it you. Could that be right. Could it finally be right. I feel mag. I feel fine. About you and about I. Well it had to happen some time. And time is now. I got it right somehow. We feel the same about so many things. So many times. I want my time go. I want my time go with you. / / I feel for you. And that feels right. And I am not always right. But what I feel. It is so real. You blow my mind. Well it had to happen some time. It's finally here. Been waiting a million years. We feel the same about so many things. So many times. I want my time go. I want my time go with you. You... you... you... But do you feel it.
YOU WILL
You don't get it yet. But you will. Smoke cigarettes. You will. Talk to yourself. You will. Be bored like hell. Yes you will be too, too, too. / / And it can not be too soon. It's such a mess here in my room. I lie in bed until the afternoon. / / And it gets so hard. Not meaning anything. Not having any part. In your life. Cos in my life I'm drowning in my time. / / Watch stupid shows. You will. Hang on the phone. You will. Another trip. You will. And feel like shit. You will feel too. / / And it can not be too soon... etc
I WANTED MUCH
I know, it had to be the television. I dream night and day. I go, away with all my thoughts and visions. Into the bright day. / / And they're telling me not to go astray. When I tell them of all my dreams. And they're telling me don't drift away. Life's even harder than it seems. / / I wanted much. A choice I had. But I had to touch upon everything. Never could choose. And like some fool. Why did I had to ruin everything. / / You think, if you would ever think about me. That I was cold and hard. Thing is, it definitely ain't that simple. Cos I'm not cold and hard. / / I know I never should have left that job. And I sure should have stayed with you. I know I never should have turned away. From all these things that did me good. / / I wanted much... etc / / Yeah yeah yeah yeah hey... Yeah, I feel bad. I feel sad about the way now. Things turned out. I can't get out. I don't do much. I drink too much. Just let it go.
WEAR MY HEART
Well you said I was a strange strange guy. Maybe a little queer. Don't need no-one in my life. And you think that's weird. / / So we fight and run. You wear my heart. Though she's your number one. You wear my heart. / / Some will find this strange. But you will understand. Cos you will always understand. / / And anyone could need a friend like you. Tell you things that I would normally not do. And I would not know the things that I would do. If anything would ever happen bad to you. No I wouldn't know. / / If that time should come. You wear my heart. I may be strong but. You wear my heart. / / And this will never change. But you will understand. Cos you will always understand. / / And anyone could need a friend like you. Tell you things that I would normally not do. And I would not know the things that I would do. If anything would ever happen bad to you. If anything would ever happen.
CAGING ME IN
So friends, where are you all now. It all had changed somehow. And for a moment. Though so far a way. There was a moment. I remember punk rock days. / / I don't care no-more. It's been taken far too long. I don't know what for. I followed everyone. I no longer see... The use in doing things... That never set me free. But caging me more in. / / The end, when everything went down. We did not see somehow. And for a minute. Though so long ago. There was a minute. I wasn't quite that old. / / I don't care... etc / / But there's times now. I wonder where I am at. Cos at the time now. Feel so useless. / / I don't care... etc
THAT'S ALRIGHT
You want to know. I had to go. When you get drunk. And let your worries show. You see me through. I stand accused. At these times I don't know what to do. You know what I wanted. I wanted you to be just like me. Be easy like me, like me. / / Well that's all right. And that's O.K. Nothing really matters to me anyway. Well, I'm all right. And I'm O.K. I'm easy down the way. / / What is this now. You've changed somehow. You say you grew up. So the fun is out. What do you want. Why all these plans. So sudden your life has to be intense. You know what I wanted. I wanted you to be like before. No more worries no more. / / Well that's all right... etc
UPSTREAM DOWNSTREAM
Life can be rough. Life can be tough. A deep green sea. Gentle and mean. / / Life can be cruel. Turn you into a fool. Each and every day. Never treats you the same. It's the same... all the same. / / Upstream downstream / / And we get by. Get by, get by and find a way you'll see. When we believe in what we are. / / You say there's not much that you need. To stay alive... More you don't need. And it is only what you want. Yes it is only what you want.
WHERE DO YOU GO?
And one day there you go. You're leaving home and little by little. You find it's like they've told. You struggle hard. You struggle hard. Yes and how. You finally found a town. And a place to live now. But then. Where do you go. / / Anything that you want. And you don't want. Well that's called living. Dreams are one by one... Forfilled, the fun not stretching that far. No matter where you are. There's always a missing part. But then. Where do you go. / / You look around. A lot of things are lost and found. Whatever out there. To find it you'd go anywhere. Or chasing that dream. Or anything you'd like to be. Search for it, but where. Tell me where do you go.
GO FOR ALL
Been told I do not think too much. Spending money when short on cash. And go out drinking far too much. And promise myself never to do that. / / I know and I do it. It shows I'm so stupid. Or maybe it's sometimes I don't give a damn. Or maybe it's sometimes I don't give a damn. I said to meet you somewhere. Keep in mind I might not be there. It's wrong to depend on me. I hope you still have a friend in me. / / I know and I do it... etc / / Hey, all I know. I go for all the things I know. Hey, and also. I go for things I do not know. We all have our mistakes. Some bad habits we can't shake. But we make such a team. Doing things just how we feel. / / I know and I do it... etc
KICK IT
I needed fine. I should have known. I now want it all the time. Me, tripping higher. Straight up for the sky. / / I can no. Kick it, kick the habit... / / I had to try. Tired of feeling low. Being down's a waste of life. Me, going higher. Cos life sucks most of times. / / I can no. Kick it, kick the habit... / / Lost in time. Won't make my work in time again. I feel fine. But around me no-one understands. Kick it, kick the habit... Kick it, kick the habit... / / I get by. I really really know so. I could survive. Without, I tried it. But then I thought, ooh why. / / I can no. Kick it, kick the habit...
HARD TO THE CORE
There's many things that I don't like. There's many things that others take for granted. They don't do much for me at all. But don't you push me away. Cos I'm here to stay. / / And way deep down. Hard to the core. Safe and sound. Hard to the core. You can feel what others don't know. You're really into. Hard to the core. / / The radio... please turn it off. I may be one in the million with offbeat taste. But I don't care what they all say. They're too stupid to judge me anyway. / / And what we are. Hard to the core. Take us far. Hard to the core. / / You can be what others don't know. You're really into. Hard to the core. One, cos living should be fun. Two, what else is there to do. Three, it's what we're gonna be. Before they can put you with the rest. With a job you can't respect. And all that will come next.
THAT'S WHERE I'M NOW
Sometimes I think so much. Wonder what I've been doing. What happened with my plans. Just what have I been doing. These places far away. I always wanted to see. They seem so far away. I know I'll never ever see. I've got a job, because I needed, money to pay what is needed. Life is getting so expensive. Don't get any time to travel. Stuck here working from 9 to 5. Getting home and that is my life. I know there must be something more. But I don't really see much more. I'm not the only one. And that makes my survival. And if you find someone. Feeling the same sometimes and. If you can talk about it. That makes it so much better. Even when life is shit. It's better when together, yeah. After work I get so tired. I need someone to make it lighter. And to go out and have some fun. To piss away my pay with fun. I know I don't get anywhere. But sometimes I don't even care. As long I do not feel alone. Can't stand to be too long alone. That's where I'm now.
I LOVE YOU
See you run. And that's fun. Cos I know. Why you go. / / I see you through. You did something bad. Cos you're no good. You are so bad. / / I love you. Do what you do. Do what you do. You can not be trusted. Ooh no. You lie like you must to. I know. / / See you cheat. And that's neat. Like a child. Running wild. / / I see you through. I am that smart. But you're so cute. You twist my heart. / / I love you... etc / / Don't take shit from anyone. Like I see a younger me. You can take all for a run. Like the way I used to be. I don't turn away from you. Life's a funny game with you. / / I love you... etc
X RUINS EVERYTHING
I've looked around everywhere. And miss that certain fire. Of what we have and share. We've taken things much higher / / It's in everything we do. Closer, we touch soul. You and I both knowing / / Sex ruins everything / / We do it with everyone. At times forget their faces. And I don't care whatever you've been doing. Cos I know that. They won't share you the way I'm doing. Let them find out that / / I know you had your share. Their lies made you so tired. It makes you so aware. We've got something finer. / / It's in everything we do... etc
LIES FOR SURVIVAL
Years... We're looking back now. As if we've learned from our mistakes. No fears... As we gave up life long ago. What we have now is not what we always wanted. Just who are we fooling anyway. / / And nothing more that we live for is true. Nothing is true... for you. We are secure. Cos we ignore the truth. Ignore the truth. Ignore the truth. / / And will it do. Till time is through. Will it do. Enough for you. Or will you know. You have been sold. Will you know. Oooh. Will you know. / / Lies for survival. What for... When it is sure. That there is nothing more.
BLENDED
Look at me now. No image and no show. I should dress up. But I don't care no more for show. I could be just. Any boy next door. But in some punk band. You never guessed that, I am sure. / / Cos I'm blended. Blended – ended. I am blended in a blender. Blended. / / I've seen too much. And it's all the same. The kids will rebel. But for how long, anyway. / / Cos I'm blended. Blended – ended. I am blended in a blender. Blended. / / I vaguely remember how I once was. Against everybody not like I was. I somehow remember the scene now dead. But I don't remember what went in my head. / / Cos I'm blended. Blended – ended. I am blended in a blender. Blended.